Beauty in the brokenness

It’s easy to feel lonely and depressed sometimes.  Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re invisible , like nobody really cares or sees you and lately I’ve felt like that.  Sometimes life is hard and you may not know why you are going through the things you are going through.  Sometimes it’s hard to see and know what the future will look like.  But the thing to remember is God is always there for you and always loves you.  No matter what anybody else may think about you the only thing that matters is if God is pleased with you and if He is getting the glory and honor in your life.  Life isn’t just about the future or your goals or dreams or whatever is going to happen.  Although those things do matter and I believe that God does care about our desires because He gave them to us.  I believe that God made us each the way He wanted for us to serve Him in a way that nobody else can.  The thing that matters though is is not the past or the future but that we are being obedient to God in this moment and that our life is glorifying God.  I’ve been listening to this song lately and it’s neant a lot to me lately.  Maybe it will mean something to you.  These lyrics mean a lot to me.  Maybe they will to you also.
“this world leaves me empty of fitting a box that I never will fill.  I’m killing myself for the sake of beauty but what is beauty after all? I’m broken and tired and angry of trying to always please men.  Lord make me beautiful from the inside out and your love is what matters to me.  I am beautiful in your eyes oh Lord. you love me, just as I am.”

Beautiful by Jessica McLean



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